We all have a story.
I feel like I owe it to you to fill you in on my past two years to explain the present. Or for that matter to fill you in on the last decade, because I can’t have this story that is unfolding without the one that brought me to this threshold of the current. All of which has transformed me, changed me. But for today’s purpose I will start with the present.
And like a good
conversation the past will find its way into my story.
At this present moment I
find myself envisioning a room that I will work in. I see how the
lighting will be, the color of the fabrics, the layout of the room. But more
then just the physical room I see it's purpose.
I have been stuck,
stuck in routine, stuck in roles, stuck in my lack of wonder. And these
last two years have been . . . . . .long pause . . . . .Hard . . . . . the only
word I could come up with.
But the feeling I feel for these last
two years, these hard years, is a stillness, is a reverence, there is a deep
quite in me, emotions are waiting to be given permission to move, there is a
burning in my heart, an excitement because even though these past two years
have been years of fear and grief they have exposed a deep innate desire to
LIVE.
To not settle, to not put limits on myself, to not put limits on my
observation of this universe.
I have a few mantras that I have been
breathing in:
"Why not you"? & "You are More"!
It is these simple phrases that started the ripple of shifting and
change.
Change seems to be the lead character of my story.
I feel a fight of the old and new
contending for space. The shifting of thoughts and beliefs. There is
a vibration and an excitement for what lies ahead.
I only have fragments of
words and images that have yet to be placed on their pages.
In what order
they land . . .
Well, that is the wonder of the story!
Nikki
